Face Time

Wednesday, April 18. Three days. That is how long I was able to keep our little secret. From the moment we found out, we were in shock. We had been trying to conceive for over 2 years. The first year of trying, we were patient and took things a month at at time and were not too worried. Then after a year (almost to the date) I had a meltdown. Uncertain as to why two healthy people weren't able to conceive, we proceeded to each have a work up. Paul checked out fine, but I was diagnosed with endometriosis and on my birthday of 2011, I had surgery to remove the endometriosis. Our doctor indicated our odds to conceive on our own were good so we tried for 4 months--no success. Then, we proceeded with fertility medication (Clomid). I was on the terrible medication for 6 months--still no success. We tried to remain hopeful but wanted to move forward as there were no signs things were working. On to year two. We proceeded to a different fertility medication (Femara) with IUI (intrauterine insemination). We had two rounds of Femara and IUI which were both unsuccessful. Of course we were devastated. We talked in depth about how to proceed. We knew we were meant to be parents but didn't know how we'd get there. We decided to continue Femara but also moved to our next step, which was to see a reproductive endocrinologist. We did our research on different clinics (with help from my sister), made the decision for a doctor in Maple Grove, and got the referral. We were waiting for insurance to give approval and for the clinic to call us with an appt. Turns out we didn't need the appt because on Sunday, April 15 we found out I was pregnant! So you can now understand the shock of a positive pregnancy test after two years of trying! It didn't seem quite real to us. I proceeded to take about 3 more pregnancy tests, all positive. Paul and I wanted to share our news and have someone validate that this was real. So on Wednesday, April 18, we shared our big news with my sister. I had gone to TJ Maxx and bought a MN Twins outfit and brought it home to show Paul and celebrate that I was pregnant. We sat down on the couch and called my sister on Face Time (like Skype but on an iPhone). The call was first with Jess and the kids; Isaac and Piper were full of energy and wanted to be on camera. We visited, then I asked if we could just talk to her, so Jess had the kids go play. Then we told Jess we wanted to show her something, so I held the Twins outfit up to the camera....her face went from smiling to breakdown in tears in excitement. It was an amazing moment to share with my sister.

The Beginning

Sunday, April 15, 2012 was a big day. We found out I was pregnant! The day before we had gone to a Twins game, visited my grandparents, and then went home for a relaxing evening. I woke in the early morning and took a pregnancy test. I had taken a test every month for over two years and had never had a positive test; always showed negative. So, naturally, I did not think this time would be any different. But I took the test like every other month to get the result, then cry, grieve and move on to the next month hoping to get pregnant. After washing my hands I looked at the pregnancy test and saw a faint plus sign...positive test! Couldn't believe what I was seeing and immediately started to cry and shake. This was at around 6 am so I go into the bedroom and wake Paul up. So he wakes up to me crying and he asked if someone was hurt or if someone had died. I just handed him the test and said "I don't know what this means; I've never seen a positive. Can this be right?!" Paul was cautiously excited. Of course the test was from Gopher Bargain Center(a discount freight store) and was $2 so I wasn't sure if this could be right. We sat in bed, excited, nervous and so badly wanted this to be true. Paul had school work I do and I had to run errands so I told Paul I would pick a few pregnancy tests to verify the results and if the other tests were positive, we could breathe and be excited. So I ran to Target, spend like $50 in pregnancy tests (all different kinds) and then couldn't wait to take a test. Next stop was Kohl's so I took a test there and it was positive. There I am at Kohl's in the bathroom crying with excitement. I hurried up to finish buying the items I had planned to get, then drove home in a daze of bliss. When I walked up the stairs, Paul was sitting on the couch and I smiled and showed him the positive test! Then we both were crying, smiling and beyond thrilled! We could not believe it finally happened...I was pregnant! We soaked up the moment but were kind of in disbelief. Therefore, I took a pregnancy test everyday for the following 6 days to confirm and see the positive sign/pregnant sign! Everyday was exciting to know it happened and nerve racking wondering if everything was ok. We prayed every night to keep our baby safe and thanked God for the miracle. Our little secret.